Little CooL ScorpioN

Merry Christmas to ALL my fren and my dearest family...

May the fun and joy with u all...

Happy New Year, 2009...

Hehe :)

Hmm, but i don feel anything yet wo...

Recently, i m watching Hong Kong drama, it is all about dancing... When i heard the music, i will start spinning and dancing.... And end with a perfect ending pose... Hehe.. Well, this only happen when i was alone in the living room... If not, other will laugh at me..

Ok la, i admit that I really like to perform ( show off?), but i think i dun have this chance anymore...

Try and imagine,

If mom let me join the dancing class when i m in the primary school..
If I have the time besides studying...

Maybe now i m not a pharmacy student, but major in art performing...
Well, this is only a dream, an impossible dream... :)

Without her, our world is kinda small...
Without her, I kinda lost in my world..

Mom leave us and went for her vacation to Taiwan...
Suppose I oso can go, BUT....

I am big sister, so i should stay at home..
look after the family and oso in the office...

Besides act as housekeeper and office temporary assistant,
I oso act as a driver....

Going in and out to market and the nearest supermarket...
100% housegirl ( not housewife, i an still single)

But, I miss her too...

I know my brother miss her too, he always daydream in his room...

She is going back tomolo la...

Going to say Goodbye to 2008, and say Hello to 2009.
Going to pay tuition fees for Sem 2, and thanks God, I passed my EOS exam.

A bit of sadness in my heart, don know why...
Last Wed, i went to Sunway Pyramid and met with my frens...
Wanna to buy present for my good and old fren... (Hehehe...)
While we are chit-chating, i felt left out...
Why?
They all can go out from Malaysia and study...
Perhaps, I never have this chance to study in foreign country.
My fren leave me and went out from Kuala Lumpur, and now even Malaysia.

Finally i figured out, i should be more independent...
I should make a promise on myself...
Gambateh, i should study hard for next sem...
Don think too much..

However, I still blue and down...

I just finished reading a novel, the author, well i really like his writing style... I never never can think like his way... So define, so detail, and so romantic... Hehe...

Rewrite in my mood...

六弄人生:
人生, 像走在一条小巷,每一弄都可能是另一个出口,也可能是一条死胡同.
生在一个幸福快乐的家庭, 是我人生的第一弄.
如愿以偿读到药剂这一科,是我人生的第二弄.
可以认识一班好友, 开心死了,是我人生的第三弄.
让我遇到你, 特别的你,是我人生的第四弄.
只因我的坏脾气, 让你受拙, 是我人生的第五弄.

现在因为我的任性,我想你这一次真的生气了吧?
这是我人生的第六弄...
伤心...

S.H.E - 安静了

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
梦想中 属於我们的婚礼
却成了 单人结婚进行曲
在这场爱情角力的拔河里
爱我还是爱你你
选择了自己 wo~
撒娇的 可爱的
迷人的 爱哭的
照片里 曾经的 都是你喜欢的
如今我还在原地
你却走回你的记忆

你说我爱你太多 就快要把你淹没
你害怕幸福 短暂一秒就崩落
分开是一种解脱
让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空 你是不是能够给我
你说我给你太多 却不能给我什麽
分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口 我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最後温柔 是因为我太爱你...

This song is very nice....
Sometimes, i always don wan so dependent on him... Scare that i will be so sad till no energy to do works and live on my own.... If he leave me in the future....
I m a really selfish person... Only think about myself... Maybe this is my only protective way...

雨还是一直下,
不知道它何时会停,
但是我的天空已经太黑了,
已看不见
因为我的魔鬼已出现了....
自私的我,
又在闹脾气了.... :(

Well, sweet, spicy, sour, and bitter... All the 4 tastes, i can have all the way in this Semester... So tired....



Sweet.. because i have a bunch of new friends... can bring me go makan... I am not the only one to be the driver la... Haha.. Common interest: go sing karaoke... I really hope that can sing again with u all,...

We were in KimGary Restaurant....

Seronoknya, eating satay and take away for supper, haha....

Spicy... because my brain always get stimulated by the new stuff... All the new knowledges... and have to remember for the whole life... Can I make it...? Just shock,....

Sour... because i jealous of his or her intelligence.... Their good results.... Always ask myself, Gambateh lol, i will add more oil in my EOS exam...

Bitter... because i am very tired... Not enough sleep or rest is the worst thing in my life....

Friends, jia you lol and study smart for class test and EOS lol...

Haha... If u know Chinese, u may understand this pie chart.... So curious, this test u just key in ur name, then after a few minutes, a pie chart pop out to analysis ur personality.... Well, this is just for fun.....

Sometimes, i think i might be a replacement in someone heart... Suddenly, i feel so down. Maybe not important, maybe someone still keep me in consideration.... He will think of me when free... Do i important in your heart? No one know.....

Well, when i think deeper, i might be also searching a replacement too... In fact, I am a selfish person.... Who put ownself in the first place.... So don trust me so much, in the future i might betray you as the bad guy (or girl...?) :P

I din do well in my class test, kinda down... But now i m having holiday (one week Raya Holiday), I am so exicited as the Malay frens... Haha...

I become a loser in this week....

“我是爱哭鬼我想哭掉对你的思念
看著镜子里面没志气的脸然后越哭越后悔
我是爱哭鬼我想哭掉对你的依恋
我也知道自己这样子不对
却还越哭越认真的为谁”
爱哭鬼- 江美琪

Study pressure is exploding silently.....
This time i really feel sorry....
about the failure of release tension.

I wanna say sorry for my fren, for my attitude... So childish...
So happy that the next day i can sing karaoke...
SO HAPPY, SO HIGH!!!
Thanks for make me feel better...

I don have any extra energy, i m so tired... Let me explain la...

After a week studies, and class tests, Gen Chem just passed, luckily i did 4 wrong answers in the test, not much pressure... But following with the Bio Science, Pharm Org Chem, Human Bio... then rest a week (Hari Raya)... I have to list out the most scaring one, Human Bio.... It is totally new for me about some topic, but kinda interesting too..

After couple of weeks, i really have some new friends, kinda crazy and fun. Last Wednesday, we went out for industrial visit to Duopharm (M) Sdn Bhd. That is not a main point, just produce drug la... My group was totally went high, the guys have to do the solo performance by singing la... We really did have a lot of fun. It is good to have some fren in anywhere, they can support you while ur family are not around. At the end of day, i was so tired, no energy to support me in choir practice.

Yesterday was my mommy's birthday, at first i don wan follow them (dad, mom and their frens) to pub for celebration cause it may be very late, i really need some rest. However, she invited my bf go too.. He oso wan to go, before that, he was doing drama rehersal on his art project, but he said he can manage to go...

Almost 12 in midnight, he still not appear at my house, my dad called me and mumbled me... Then i straight away go by myself, drive alone, don wait for my dear since he was late. When i reached there, i felt uncomfortable, the people were hugging, dancing, drinking alcohol and smokinh too. yeah, u maybe think that i m so out-dated, such a young people has an out-dated mind. This is the first time i go to this kind of place, just admit that i m really a good girl, ok?

After a few mins, he was there with me, i really din angry with him because he was rushing to there and meant to be late... Sorry dear, let u worry and rush there, sorry once again, i wont to do that again. After this, they still wanna go to sing karaoke in Neway puchong around 1.30a.m.

Finally, mom had headcahe, we can go home around 3 a.m.
That why i am so tired, so tired today since i woke up at around 8.30a.m... Haizh, so tired, have to study Bio Science for test, Gambateh...

Recommandation for entertainment: Money is not Enough 2... Funny laughter and touching story... I cried for it..

Dang... dang... this is my new house, just completed... It is in Balakong there...

Hello there, long time din write blog la... Miss me? I am sure u do..( Shock sendiri dah..) I had been busy from last week till today... Finally a short break is here, Merdeka day (3 days holiday) Can wake up lately in the morning... I hate the morning alarm sound very much. Most of the time, I have class at 8am... Have to wake up at 6 something, fetch my sister to her school then reach IMU... Din have a good breakfast.. Sob..sob so cham.... (just kidding, not so serious la..)

Last saturday we have charity home visit... Rumah Charis in Taman Yarl... (very near to Kelab OUG, if you know where is it) It had a carnival, charity sales... Compulsory for students to be there... I became the camera"girl", carried the camera, taking photo... We reached at there on time, around 8a.m.

This is the place, Rumah Charis

Before works, photo time!!! (I am not in...)







I was there in this photo liao... (try and locate me out)






That is me and my fren, smile!!! ( being captured in a photo, strange!!! dun know how to smile la...)




We did have a good time at there, helping them out in setting up the booth and stall for them, selling pau, biscuits and mooncake too.... We can try out varities of food there... let me think and list out, nasi lemak, cream puff, mixed vege rice, friend chicken, bread, soya bean,.... .... (A lot a lot x 1000..)

We ended up our jobs and leave around 12.30p.m. I was very tired, and went back home, took a bath and fall down and slept.... Even dear was late, oso i dun know.... tis prove that i was very tired... And i had 2 reports that haven finish yet...



Well, that was last week...



This week , no reports but class test is here... Have to read and study la.... (sob.. sob..) I hope I can do it and pass lol.... Gambateh..

If you are superfan of TVB drama, you may watch the Heart of Greed before, which is now very hot in Astro Channel 311. Tomolo will be the final 2 episodes. Just now, i m late, back from uni, i rather take away my dinner, pack it and back on time, took a quick bath, and sit tight in front of the tv.

The drama is very touching, it talks about the family. Many people in this world need a family's support, and live happily everyday. However, Good thing never last forever. A lot of quarrel and misunderstandings happened, everyone was not happy. Luckily there was an important person will be there, link everyone together, that's call parents. Everyone in a family, has his or her characteristics, not matter good or bad, u should accept them because they are your closed one. Believe it or not, I am very lucky. I have a lovely family.

I had a quarrel with mom a few days. I just wan to tell her abut the loan, then let her don worry. But she suddenly talk out of topic, she said, she wont take the money or anything... Even though I tried to explain, she did not listen to it. Then i was very angry, i just walked away... She was so angry... About my attitude la...

At night, dad and me had a long talk about this. I know i should not be rude to my mom... dad din scold me or beat me, he was just sitting there, but i was holding my book, din dare to look straight on dad's eye. Because I know that is my fault. At the end, Mom forgave me la... She advised me, don put so much pressure on my head...

In this drama, Alfred was died in the accident, he was not able to see the email from Sheung Joy Sum that she forgive him. Actually they can say it out before it was too late... So sad, they cannot be a couple again,... When the girl read the boy's diary, i felt very sad... If the girl knew this earlier, the boy told her about this earlier, everything must be different. I know this is just a drama, but it really happen in the reality.

Once again, I have to admit that I am lucky that i found him. He maybe is not the best, not handsame and oso not smart, but i oso don know why I choose him.... Strange huh?

平凡的天使， 魔鬼有话要说。谢谢你的支持和温柔， 改变了自私的魔鬼。

hehe... I like this song, "Vincent"

Starry, starry night
Paint your palette blue and gray
Look out on a summer's day
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul...
Shadows on the hills
Sketch the trees and the daffodils
Catch the breeze and the winter chills
In colors on the snowy linen land.

Now I understand
What you tried to say, to me
And how you suffered for your sanity
And how you tried to set them free:
They would not listen;
they did not know how --
Perhaps they'll listen now.

Starry, starry night
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze
Swirling clouds in violet haze
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue
Colors changing hue
Morning fields of amber grain
Weathered faces lined in pain
Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand.

Now I understand
What you tried to say, to me
And how you suffered for your sanity
And how you tried to set them free:
They would not listen; they did not know how
--Perhaps they'll listen now.

For they could not love you
But still, your love was true
And when no hope was left inside
On that starry, starry night
You took your life as lovers often do--
But I could've told you, Vincent:
This world was never meant
For one as beautiful as you.

Starry, Starry night
Portraits hung in empty halls
Frameless heads on nameless walls
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget
Like the strangers that you've metT
he ragged men in ragged clothes
The silver thorn, a bloody rose
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.

Now I think I know
What you tried to say, to me
And how you suffered for your sanity
And how you tried to set them free:T
hey would not listen; t
hey're not listening still--
Perhaps they never will.

Guess wat? Until today, I did not watch the BATMAN movie yet... Sob..sob.. Why? Why? Non stop asking the sky like a idiot.. (I wanna be a crazy scorpion liao since I entered IMU for last 3 weeks? Not too fast... ) U r very curious about why I wanna watch? My main purpose is to see the Joker, rather than the Batman.. :)

Nowadays, I have a feeling, things is repeating in my life now, what I had in Form 6, pressure and tension are here with me again now...

Gambateh lol, silly girl... Don think too much... I feel that I am more hardworking than last time in Form 6. Maybe no more tuition or guide for me, i must work harder... Strange huh? Besides this, I am gaining weight too, that is totally not a good news!!! I should find more time to play some sports and exercises besides study time...

Everyone said that "when Adam met Eve, where the love begins..." Maybe we should try this, in Chinese... " 当自私的魔鬼遇上平凡的天使...." isit sound special? Well, just jump out from my mind.. Hehe...

I wanna watch BATMAN la.... Oh, i mean I wanna watch Joker la...

If u study Chinese or Chinese educated, u may know what is the title all about... (ren shan ren hai) This is to explain the situation of Pikom PC Fair, which held in 1 to 3 August. Sesak betul betul... Maybe i never go to the event before, so i did not think how the situation will be... I went there to buy a pen-drive... (argue with my sis because i took her one, from 1st day in IMU, wanna start the fight liao..) and oso bought printer inks for my mom.... (Being a good daughter ma...) hehehe...

When i reached there with dear, WALAU WEI!!! (shout in my bottom of heart) So many people crowded at the Kuala Lumpur Convention Centre.... Both of us stucked at the Hall 2, wanna go to Hall 5, traffic congestion, serious traffic jam... quickly find the emergency exit.... Haha...

We planned to watch the Batman at KLCC... Unluckily, dear forgot to book tickets, FULL House, cant watch the movie again.... HAizh...
Mom already said, don back home so late, so we din go for movie lolz even 9.30pm was available.
Nvm, as long as I get wat I want... (pen drive la, of course and go out with dear la..hehe)

Even we din watch movie, we went the Galeri Petronas. Exhibition. Hmm, honestly, I don have any sense of art, my brain just can analyse science, may be more better than art... At there, i just appreciate art,... ok? Hehe, just teman him lol...

3rd week in IMU, so far so good, I am still alive.... But i am getting sleepy head in lectures... I never meant to be not respect the lecturer... I will feel sleepy and I tried to make myself awake by opening my eye more frequently when they are going to close... Tak boleh tahan, Help!!!

Gambateh lol... Everyone... :)

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY to my lovely, most handsome brother, Lee Chun Hoe...
We love u forever....

I am fed up with Friendster blog seriously... So I changed to here... Welcome to my new blog space la.. Ya, this is 2nd week in IMU. No orientation week, but lectures and reports never stop, searching for articles and listening to the lecture... The timetable is so packed, so busy, from 8.00a.m. till 7.00p.m. So tired... Ah!!!

Besides, guess wat, I joined choir club.. If u heard me sing before, u will know my voice, How "lovely" is it, rite? Oh well, it is a big gang, so I don think they will notice my singing, or maybe my voice... Hehe... Now when i have free time, library is my third home, instead of my lovely home and lecture theatre... Doing my notes and reports... Here is no more paper notes from lecturer, u have to download or search notes from the computer...

Actually, I like the multidisplinary lab... So bright, well equiped and NICE.... Library is big and COLD too... one more important thing, the cafeteria...!!! The food is not very very nice, but can put in mouth and swallow for energy storage, let u hold on till 7.00pm. Honestly, it is better than VI canteen, bigger ma and more variety of food, ok?

From Monday till Friday, busy from morning till evening, leave one hour for entertainment (DRAMA time..) Just keep contact with dear by sms and phone... Well, wat can i do? Now study comes first, Mom and dad work hard for my tuition fees, even I had applied the PTPTN loan... I have to do well, so wont let them down...

Hehe, I got IELTS result la.... Suprise, I get band 7... I knew I did not do well on the Speaking test and Writing too... However I got this "ok" result, maybe just because of my luck and blessing from somewhere else...Hehe!!!

I read a book "Poetry of Summer", the author is Hijawu, Taiwan writer... I like this phrase...
Translated into English...

Soul is just like a cake. When you fall in love with someone, you will give a part of your soul to him or her, just like a slice of cake is given to other. If he or she also love you, in a same way, you will get back part of the soul, a slice of cake.
However, he or she don't love you, then your soul never be a complete and perfect anymore because you cant get back the feeling or love....

Thanks God, My soul is a nice cheese cake, complete and perfect..Hehe..

Gambateh la for everyone that i know... Miss you all, my Fren...