Little CooL ScorpioN

I m here again... Away from exam and uni life, enjoying the holiday now... However, will start to work in pharmacy again.. Earn some pocket money and don wan get bored.. Sometimes too free for me is not a good thing.. I likes to think extra which is nonsense... Hehehe..

Well, before i work,.. Just wanna do some flash back on my Sem 3 (which is my love and my pain)
1. Had fun during orientation with juniors...
2. PBL discussion every week, non-stop practical reports and portfolio... Don forget PSD session.. ( I hope i can do well in the following session in Sem 4 because i hate my performance in last session )
3. had lunch with frens... and oso sing karaoke.. ( well, i m not a good singer but i likes singing)
4. received a birthday surprise from my fren...
5. exam time, my heart breaks in many pieces... Luckily now i passed my Sem 3... ( Thanks God.. I love u very much because i din fail my Natural Product and Pharm analysis)

This is my Sem 3... I will miss u de...

I just watched the movie, 2012.
At first, i am really not interested to watch it, my brother keep saying that is a disaster movie, cannot watch( bla, bla, and bla...) but since so many ppl said it is nice... So i went for it.
After the movie, i din get panic by the earthquake or the tsunami or even the volcano explosion ( well, a bit la), I just keep thinking that, ppl at the moment, there is no more separation, differences or level, everyone just wanna survive and is helping each other. Besides, we should appreciate for everything which is in our hands before it is too late...

Recently, i read a book, love story... << 我们不结婚，好吗？>>
Nice story and very touching...
I read this twice, first time in Form 5, and now.
Yesterday i had spent 5 hours to finish reading it...
What i want to say here is i have a different feeling when i read it this time...

radio said: 藤井树说发现不结婚一点也不好
but vicki said: 无论结婚不结婚，我可以待在我喜欢的人身边，那一定很好，也很棒。

So after i finished reading, i sent a sms to my dear... and say i miss him so much..
Hehehe ^^

hey hey i am here... since today is my big day, so i delay a bit my study time... and i wrote something here... For who wish me happy birthday, i would like to say thousand times of thanks to show my appreciation.. Your wishes had lighten up my day... hehe...

This is my officially 21st birthday... However my family celebrated and made a party for me last year.... So today is kinda quiet. Somemore I am in study break now, will have exam next week... So cant meet up with fren... Everyone is so busy in preparing the exam...

Oh well, it does ruin my good mood today... I will choose the easiest subject to study today... But which one wo..? Hehe...

That's all for now... Go back to study... I wish I can pass the EOS... I hope everyone can pass it too without stress...

Smile..^^
*************************************************************************************
Hey hey i m back to complete this post... Very touching to receive a suprise from my frens... All the birthday wishes had lighten up my day... Last but not least, i have a cake and flower for my birthday from my dear... He is so "bad" to treat me a birthday blast... Oh well, i really thought he is not free to meet me...

Oh well, that is my 21st birthday in 2009. Ordinary but with suprise... Love u guys!!!
and lot lots to come... I will upload all... Thanks!!!

Smile ^^

Today is Pharmaceutic II Practical exam.. I am kinda happy with my product-suppository... I can manage to calculate and finish my worksheet before the lecturer. I don know what is my mark at the end, but i feel relax after the exam...

Yesterday is my worst day... When i wanna go to uni, oh my babe, i failed to start her engine... I cant go to uni with her... And somemore mom and dad were not around... I called him but fail... I was so helpless. Gonna to be late in class again... Thanks god, mom finally called her fren to fetch me...

I never meant to angry with him but i felt so helpless and disappointed... However, i do understand his condition... I had learnt a Chinese phrase, " 能包容不完美的，你就能一切完美" In this world, nothing is perfect, but if u learn to accept it, it will be perfect for you... I still learning the way, ok??
Don worry... and smile...

I m here to update my news la...
Now i m very busy for last 2 weeks in Uni... after that, study break for us to prepare EOS exam...
Practical exam and Extemp. Dispensing main exam are coming..
I hope that i can do it well and everyone is happy.. Don wan so stress la...
I hope that world peace without war, disease and disaster...
Let's pray hard for tomolo...

I had noticed that someone is changing recently...
Dad, i m happy with ur change... Hehehe...

At this moment, still doing Log BOOK.. Arh!!!!

These few days, my mood is not ok... may due to my natural products... Lot lot of thing... I wonder i can pass it or not... Feel so sad...

Finally i realize i may not able to change a fact... So i have to get used to it la... Get used to be a "hardworking to be" student, be an obedient daughter, be an independent sister to lead my brother and now learn to accept.. This is not negative feeling. I m ok now, just wanna be open heart a bit... Don wan to be so stubborn, i can solve thing by myself... If i can do before that, why not now....?

I can drive and have a car, then i just go by myself la...

Notes, exam... So what? Life is still going on... Be happy.. Be tough...

别再为他流泪 - 梁静茹

你走了太久一定很累
他错了不该你来面对
离开他就好 就算了 心情很干脆

他其实没有那么绝对
远一点你就看出真伪
离开他不等于你的世界会崩溃
转个弯你还能飞

就别再为他流泪
别再让他操控你的伤悲
就算有一点愚昧一点点后悔
也不要太狼狈
他不值得你的泪
把那遗憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以后为自己醉
以后管他是谁

每段感情都非常珍贵
他的好你就放在心扉
记得有个人曾让你那样的心醉

你笑了照亮夜幕的黑
什么梦都不比你的美
多少年以后想起他还有些体会
那些你已无所谓

Guys, don ever try to drive in the rain while u r sad... It never feel better after this act... Sometimes, if someone just fly ur kite, don be sad, life is still going on...
U do it yourself, really don need someone...
Crying does not help physically and mentally, it gives you danger while driving...
At this moment, there is only you and ur babe car. Love ur life and babe too...
However it feels suck when everyone is leaving u, loneliness and hungry too...

Maybe it's time to think again.. About me or us? Raining stops, mood is going better...

I am back!!! I am back!!!

Finally i can settle down in front of my dear... (computer la...) It was a busy uni life when in Sem 3. This is going to be my week 7 this week... Half of the semester ady... Start to worry lolz...

Don complaint about this first. I have something to share here. I went back to old school (Victoria Institution) to attend an activity. VI Chinese Language Union (华文学会）is 17 years old... So the juniors were organizing an anniversary "party" and invites the seniors (like me) back and celebrate...

So, well done!!! They really did a good job and we all had a great time.

Memory flashback.... I am very happy that I can join and make several successful activities during my From 6. Although we quarrel and maybe hurt each other, we still have good memory and learned many things that cant get from books. Organize an activity in a club is a great experience to learn and grow. Chinese Society is harder to get attention in the SMK than in Chinese Independent School. We all have to do more activities to prove our existence. I am happy that i can be one of them to the contribution.

Photo were taken but i din showed up in the picture very seldom because i have a big problem- face problem. Acne!!! Arh!!! Please go away~~~

As i just said, now back to normal uni life... PBL, practical report and portfolio are back into my little life... my life is so packed... Somemore the notes are stacking and "staring" at me... Non stop yelling, "come and have a look on me, draw some line and write something on my body!!!" I wonder why we have to learn about diagnosis and exam tests in every study case in PBL... It totally drives me to crazy... I thought all should pass to doctor or lab experts to worry about... However, i still reading and understand it... Haizh,.. Life should go on, be strong and be tough... Since i can pass those hard times in STPM, uni life so what??? I can make it de...

Sorry that i din explain wat is PBL... Problem Based Learning, quite tough for us... espeacially me!!

Btw, i just recover from flu and cold... Sore throat is suffering for me... However, i haven finish my antibiotic course.. Ehmmm, don follow ah, it is not good for ur health. I really hates to take pills or capsules... The sweetened cough syrup is my worst nightmare. But, i take pharmacy course in my tertiary education. How "wonderful" life that I have. Oh well... Hehe..

I just found out interesting "fact". That day I went to pasar malam with my group, H1N1 for outing... While others were eating, I went to buy things with 2 frens.. I always be the one who walks first among the three, walks very far from them. So i just stopped for a while and waited for them to come nearer. Three of us were walking at different speed and pace.

Suddenly i realized that when I walked with my dear, we won't walk separately or stay too far from each other. Hmm, maybe we are hand-holding or our "radio frequency" are close to each other. So we can walk on the same pace. Well, same frequency can talk and interact better. Hehe.. Weird huh???

I wonder u all can understand it or not, but i know that dear and I are at the same frequency... Get it?... Hahaha..

Picture time...

Group-8: H1N1, RockZzzzz....

pretty face huh?? I m one of the survivors that away from face drawer.... Yeah!!

Kissing you dance group.... Wonderful memories... I love u all babe~~~ Muacks!!

Hello, i m here, i m back....
We all just finished our big activity in Sem 3....
Orientation for the juniors... Woohoo...

I just wanna say, H1N1 Rocks!!!
Btw, H1N1 is my group's name... Not the star of every newspaper!!!

Guys, i will upload my photos..
Meanwhile, i m doing report..
Ah.... have to study la....
Sob..sob..

I AM BACK!!!
let u all see my new house first!!!

during renovation... Nice outlook???


Mini swimming pool for...? Fish la.... ( Pretty girl is my sister, she is shy....!!!)


Shady place in my garden... Good place for BBQ, pay rental fees to me if interested!!!

OK, this time until here la... Doing report again....

I am sorry... i should not think like that...
But i feel like i m a nobody recently..
I am just an invisible figure around my frens and family...

Not matter i had done so well, i still involves in faults and mistakes...
Not matter i was being so good, my hard works were ignored by them...
They are my physical and financial support, claims that everything is good for me...
Even i tried my best to repay the fault...
Shit!!!
I was so depressed...

However, that day I went to rainbow waterfall....
I know that he cares for us, by his mumbling and holding our hands...
Btw, i should go hiking more often...
Do exercise will make me feel happier
And BE busy a bit, so that i wont think too much?

Isit, my dear???
(hahahaha....)

Going to start my new semester...
Hope that i can do better...
At least, i can manage my emotion and feelings well...

I have nice experience when working...
However i was busy packing mask...
So everyone, please take care lol

At this moment, face mask and hand sanitizer are popular in pharmacy...

总觉得我们变了，变得陌生了。
你觉得呢？

Hehehehe....
How well do u know me?
Hmmm, sometimes i oso don know what is in my mind...

Wanna find money so i go for work... but i tired of it..
Wanna lose weight so i go for work... but i ate a lot..

So how??...

Haizh...

Now i am working in pharmacy... ...
Just gain some experiences and money...
It really helps me to remember the drug and use my knowledge properly...
Hehehe...

However, I am very tired...
Maybe I am old already.. Haizh...
But i cut my hair and change my hairstyle...
Sorry, cant upload my photo at this moment....
But I am looking more younger... Hahaha...

I am back to here.... and I am free too.... Free from exam... Yahoo....!!!
Today is the last paper i have.... Finally no need to study for 1 month plus....
However, it is not good time for me and my dear...
This is because he just started his new sem and i just started my holiday....
Hmm....

However i can meet my frens... I miss them so much... Hehe...
Somemore, i can watch drama.... drama and drama.... Hehehe...
Besides, i found a part time job... Money, money...
I need money to buy things....

Since i am free now, i will try to update my status more often... (try to, not must ah)

Miss me? Sorry if u keep waiting for my news....
I was in depression... So stress... PBL, PSD session and portfolio..
Report, report... all the way...
All's about study... mainly because i am not good in English...
Not confident and messed up all my works..

But now...
I think i feel better now
I am improving... my relationship and family...
Most important, study...
Exam is coming...

Sometimes, it is not good to be depressed...
It hurts yourself and the people who surround u...
I was mad because of this...
MOOD was not good, self-transform into a silent and dangerous people.
Who likes to be angry without reasons.
BODY is getting worse, getting ugly... Going to be an " UGLY Betty"
Ish...

Now I wanna keep myself to be more happy... (at least)
Now thinking, after exam, I have part time job...
Money money come to mommy...
I am so excited when i think about it
Maybe it will be tiring, but i will enjoy it...

By the way, I love money.... :)

Damm, my life now is a pressure cooker... Shit la, i m so depressed...
Actually i wanna think positive one... But, i don know ah...

Class tests are coming... i hope i can make it... not, i must make it...
Change my attitude and my mind...
Gambateh..
Don wan to be so stressed...

wanna live happily, is it too hard?

After my cousin's death, one of my fren also leave us suddenly....
She is smart, always smile and be nice to everyone...
Unluckily, she is gone...
So suddenly...
I am sorry that I can't attend her funeral.... I can't pay a last respect to her...
Mom don't let me go because my family just settled my cousin's funeral one week ago...

I hope my fren can rest in peace and have a better life in her next living....
Goodbye, my fren, Yun Chi....
I will remember you....

Long time din update this blog... Why? This new year i was very busy, different from the last year... I had a vacation in Hatyai, Thailand with family... I had unforgettable memory on this New Year...

My cousin just passed way... Ya, i m not joking...
Haizh, it happened so suddenly...
He was too young, only 25 years old, leave his wife and his 2 little young daughters....
Actually, i oso not very close with him...
Since young, we two din interact much or play together...
But during the ceremony, i cried..
Dun know, maybe the music... or it is really happened, it is true....
He really leave us...

No matter what, just appreaciate the people or thing around us....
Do take care ourselves for the loved one.

One day to go....
One of my favourite festival is coming on the way....

A lot of thing happened so suddenly around me...
Luckily, the thing was just settled...
Just want to say HAPPY everyday...

Hehehe...

FINALLY i have the time to update my blog... Last week, i was in pressure... Luckily my fren helped me out.. I wanna say thanks and SORRY to u...

I am trying to make my EQ level higher, so that i can handle thing better...
New semester new hope... ( Not I hope only, I want to)

I want to be more tougher than i should be, I should be more hardworking than now...
I want to keep this size till the end of the year...
I want to save more money ( I don know why.... Just save lolz)
I want to be more happy....

Gambateh, little cool scorpion...

To my dear, happy 1st anniversary.... ;)